“I’ll never understand how time can make a moment feel as close as yesterday and as far as years.”
This heartbreaking story follows a gay teen, Griffin, dealing with his first love, heartbreak, and loss. After losing his first love (Theo) to a drowning accident, Griffin finds himself lost and his OCD getting worse. The only person he can confide in is the boy who Theo started dating after Griffin, Jackson.
I expected a very sad novel, and it was. Although it wasn’t sad enough to make me cry, I sympathized a lot with Griffin (even though sometimes he could be a little hard to like, but understandably so). This book powerfully expressed what it’s like to lose someone you loved, someone you thought was always going to come back to you.
I appreciated how open this book was about sex (and what is healthy sex) and other things like it, something I think YA fiction could use some more of as long as it is done correctly. The movement between past & present also offered breaks between the emotion heavy chapters and some insight into who Theo was.
My only two big critiques of the book would be that the pop culture references were sometimes too much and unnecessary (and this is coming from someone who typically likes them). Also the “twist” seemed very forced, and maybe could have used some more foreshadowing.
Adam Silvera is definitely a voice to keep an eye on in the future.